030

i want to hide my feelings,
i want to keep some things to myself,
but it’s so hard for me to conceal them,
i talk too much.

but maybe i should just keep them,
for different people,
who doesn’t react the way i fear they do,
the problem is, i can’t.

what i feel is what i feel,
in the moment they are so very real,
and my eyes, my face, my mouth,
tell them everything.

027

I am tired of trying to make people happy and make them feel loved, when the only thing I feel is like I’m being annoying, and I unloved and like my actions are unnecessary. 

I won’t do it anymore. If someone will love me, I won’t try to earn it anymore.