i am frightened,
frightened because of change
frightened because of change i have never done before
frigthened because i will feel joy
and she will be chased away
i’m frightened because….
because i never intended for her to be lost
so lost after four long years
i hoped she would have plans
have a future in mind
because i have written mine down
and now
now my future is wobbling
wobbling on sticks i thought were pillars
now i have to tell him that i cannot provide a home
i cannot provide a home without throwing her out
i cannot promise a secure future
i thought everything was settled
i thought everything was settled?
everything was settled?
right?
it’s not???
oh dear oh dear oh dear
i messed up real bad
or did i?
i thougth i asked
i thought we agreed
did i tell him lies?
oh dear oh dear
now i will be the one to tell him
that our dreams may be postponed
because she has no plans
and so ours cannot be
and so we are stuck here
in a dream
and my plans are dreams
and my dreams cannot be
my dreams…
must wait
oh dear…