did you know that I am in love with you?
yes. yes, you do.
it started with a smile, and it brought light into my life.
it brought butterflies and giggles and trembling hands.
whenever we met i felt as if all the nerves in my body
charged up and buzzed expectantly.
my cheeks are still bright pink whenever we’re together.
i’m sure they were then. how obvious.
i thought i did it smoothly, i thought i did it gracefully.
but we were awkward and foolish,
yet it all worked out. look at us.
we’re clinging onto each other, but we’re also giving space,
space to breathe and grow.
yet i find that with you in the space, everything is easier.
now i look back at my younger self with a smile,
instead of shutting her out and hating her.
and she is just as excited as i am.
how beautiful and rare you are, so divine and yet mortal.
brutally mortal. you have experienced pain that scares even me.
and now i am so happy to be able to give you joy.
if this joy lasts, which i will make it do, then life will be great.
with you hard times will not be great mountains that i climb alone.
with you i exist even more in moments that i otherwise would forget.
with you i am my best self.
i am leaving for many days, and all those days will be painful,
but i hope that we will make it through,
with stronger hearts and even more love to give.
you are my soulmate.